saying people don’t care is not fair; because you know they do.
its why it hurts you so much, because for one reason or another you felt as though you had to be away from them to get to where you needed to, and you haven’t.
it hurts because you can’t go through a-z of everything you remember doing having hurt those who cared for you.
it hurts because you can’t get that time back.
and you constantly end up in this position; deal with the pain, or retreat, same as feral cat or dog.
and as you slowly noticed today, with every tear you shed; you become even more enstoned in hate; for yourself, for who you haven’t become.
who you have become goes without saying.