Jacob was right. He’d been right all along. He was more than just my friend. That’s why it was so impossible to tell him goodbye — because I was in love with him. Too. I loved him, much more than I should, and yet, still nowhere near enough. I was in love with him, but it was not enough to change anything; it was only enough to hurt us both more. To hurt him worse than I ever had.


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21 Jul
2010

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how can not speaking to her before i sleep


affect me so badly? :(



i miss her so much right now, but she doesn't know :'(





my eternal


ich vermisse dich



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the day of pain

17 Jul
2010
:'(

a summer of blood
a summer of pain
yet we go round in circles
again and again

numerous fears
plentiful tears
holding my heart out
as you plunge in the spear

wanting so much
yet getting so little
you loved me so much
until your acquittal

crying on the phone
hiding at home
whilst you will meet him
and put him on a throne

i will be lest
at best, in a wreck
'lest let it be known
you left me alone

in months of sleep
i left you to weep
yet your love woke me
and set me free

free from hate
and free from fear
but not from your friend
cabir dear

i hate him so much
and you know this is true
yet you wont do what
is nessecery for us

i hate him because
he reminds me of love
not mine for you, nor yours for mine
but yours for him and his in return,

i hate him so much
because you get sad when he is
yet you make me sad to make him happy


i'm starting to hate him
more than i love you :(
contentment. what is it?

what kind of person is content?

what does it actually mean, to be content?

at this point, i've always run away in the past.

i don't know if i'll ever be whole again.

irradication.

i dont even know who i am anymore.
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